sWEET sPACE

A vow to myself I swear,

in immorality

would I not engage

for all the time I have left

But you,

my personal weakness:

it amazes me how

from closed to open I go at your sight

As I look in distance

and see you smile,

even more like slut I feel

when 'I love you' you say

Sadly, if truth be told,

You leave me in sweet space.... wanting more

FROM THE GALLERY

With tears smart,

I watched from the gallery

as the straps grip

firmly held him in place.

Tears flowed from my eyes

just as they flowed

when dagger

to my fathers chest he drew.

My lover of me asks,

'how is it that your eyes tear?

when without thought,

he made you fatherless'

To sum it all, 1 + 1 =2,

what justice do I find in two deaths?

A friends DISEASE

She waited for a stranger,
and fear took her mind;
a stranger who would curse
as from behind he penetrated her.

She waited prepared for a stranger:
for she knew
the pain and disease
his harm will bring to her.

Instead she saw a friend,
in secure arms she let her guard down.
he threw her to cold floor,
and did the strangers deed.

Now with a friends disease,
she forgives and tries to live right.

OUTSTRETCHED

I saw your hands outstretched,

your palms open and warm:

In them you offered hope,

hope that your love will be lasting.

I heard you say,

'do not my advances refuse,

for with intentions fair,

I approach with a lovefilled heart'

Your mouth of words tired:

Those words that should have been calm,

but my troubles were even severer

for the poor bliss of your words to settle

My insecurities raged onwards:

your palm I refused, and my way I went.

UNCERTAINTY

I fear wandering
For no matter where I tread
Every path
To the unknown leads

My quest for knowledge confuses me
Its as though
The more I insist on knowing
The less I learn

Ive sought freedom
But in my mind, the thought resounds:
‘Possibly before we are free
We should be fearful’’

My life revolves around uncertainty
Only the certainty of nothingness reassures….

nEW bEgGininGs....

This year has been one with many begginings for me: I got featured in my very first print magazine, I started my first proper job, I started a retirement savings account, ..........