Twenty And Two

It was my birthday on the 12th of February, I wrote a poem that day: I could lie that it was one of the best days I have had in a long while, but it wasn't: It wasn't even a relatively good day, factly speaking, it was one of the worst day's I've had in a long while....It rained that day though, I enjoyed the smell of dust freshly beaten by rain..... Please enjoy the poem, and leave comments.






How swiftly time flies
on its wings: twenty and two years:
Too soon has my time been spent,
and closer to manhood I advance.

It was mid time of day
when my pitied beauty to me said,
'all others besides you
have with age grown'

I do not remember when it all
stopped making sense:
as maturity that with age should come
has not by my path passed

It should be a good thing that I age,
but for the fear the swift years pass me by...

I BECOME A POET

Trust me; I have met poets! I may even be one?
He is a dangerous person to disagree with, I once tried?

He feeds his ego with well meaning words:
What defense do you stand against him with?
He writes for the sake of "self-expression"

You don’t know he’s selfish?
His manner of communication isn’t wholesome or edifying;
He conveys little sense in blown out vocabulary

The greatest one of them; Shakespeare,
Never has a man turned so little knowledge to such great account, as in his case
His mind was so fine; no idea could violate it, but death struck.

‘Death conquers all things’

My Birthday...Youth Service...POP...Poetry...Allen...

I haven't posted anything in a while... maybe not a while, that would be a huge understatement, maybe like a year or something... I have been growing, maturing in ways I never thought I would, I have been socialising: over the time span between my last post and now, I have met some of the most intelligent, exciting, professional people whose influence would continue to provide some sort of guidiance.

I started my National Youth Service, and just recently concluded it. I started my first paid job, and recently completed its course. I became a leader in my church, and up until recently, I was convinced it was the right thing to do.

Yesterday the 12th was my birthday: Abuja's first rain of the year fell on the same day... still trying to figure out if theres more to that than just rain, but I pray it means something good would come my way this year... The day before that, on the 11th, I had my passing out parade...

Have spent the last year working on a book of poetry: Its a collection of 60 English Sonnet styled poems. Read a really intresting poem on Seyes blog yesterday: seye.blogspot.com: Think the title is allen avenue or something, loved his incorporation of dialogue in the poem and its easy blend with all the conventional elements of modern poetry.

Its good to blog again, would be uploading poems from my newest book sometime soon.

fOR dEJI

O ever worthy, ever crowned in praise.
Blest in thy ways and blest in thy life,
Add that your every thought be faultless as
God's line; thy body be holy, thy acts be
merciful.

Sin still with fiercer rage pursues; obscuring
the virture, defaming the muse.
A soul like thine, in pain, in grief resigns.

'the good lord you serve, never to harm shall bring you'

iDENTITY

As hard as I try to forget, painfully I remember, as the night transcended to morning I was filled with thanks that my flesh was from the mosquito’s sting rescued.
My Step-mom had whipped up a bowl of rice stained brown by the twice as much beans it contained, gleefully, with my father I prayed over the food: those morning prayers mattered much to my father, for though he was a Christian, even I who was a Muslim practiced more of Christianity’s ideals: as he made us believe, he worshipped with the Grail land: the Grail land is a heavenly place: a wild expanse of land with beautiful colorful animals littering the expanse. I would blog on the Grail later, for now; my thoughts should not stray…

As we eat, I turned to him and asked the most innocent, honest question I remember asking all my young years,

‘How come you hate my mother so?’

This question should not at all sound to you strange, for once, he met my mum, she greeted and he very rudely ignored: for one who grew in a household were the man was absent and the woman combined his responsibilities with hers and easily shouldered them, his act was to me childish and somewhat stupid, irritating even...

For a long second, he dropped his spoon and sighed. Adjusting his ring

‘You know I can slap you with this ring and leave an impression upon your face…’ he asked, his voice low as though he were complimenting and not scolding.

‘… You weren’t there when I started to love your mum. Why should you now question me for hating her?’ By this time, he had raised his voice. I bet he could see me shaking: fear rattled my bones, more than ever before, I wished the concrete floor would mysteriously open and consume me

‘Sorry sir…’ I continued, but he also continued with a raised voice, I didn’t hear most of what he said for I was too scared to hear.

I continued ‘… I know you’re my father, you only wish the best for me…’

Then he shocked me. He was silent, and calmly said

‘You’re not my son’ Fear escaped me. I gained composure,

‘If it’s not you, then who is it?’ I asked, and then he truly shamed me, shamed his generation, his father and his fathers father .

‘Go ask your mother…’

he said looking away from me. Then my heart filled with hate… I wished I could drain every last drop of his blood from my veins… for me, this was a huge deal: for I cried and cried. My first impulse was to pack my bag and then call my mother. I imagined leaving his house, begging him to disown me. But for the intervention of my aunt Jummai, I would have cried till my eyes dried of tears…

All of this is past now, not knowing ones identity is unholy, scary, frightful beyond anything: I saw him as my father, but now I know better, with my salvation, I realize and remind myself daily that he’s only a guardian, my real father is up in heaven… the Lord God Almighty…

even now, I thank him for that day, for if he didn’t deny me and render me fatherless, I wouldn’t have sought my real father, my heavenly father… one who is not bound to me by just blood, but by love, by the spirit, by sacrifice, by mercy… One who despite my imperfections loves me perfectly. Life is exceedingly merrier with him as my father, for even as I mistake, he is faithful and just to forgive me. And as he forgives, he blesses me still.

I realize daily, we are sojourners on this Earth, bound to complete a journey whose destination is heaven. As my life I restored to Christ, I swore to leave earthly things for earthly men, as now I am a new man in Christ. A restored son. One blest beyond anything I can imagine or see.

hOW lOVELY fLORENCE mUST bE...

By the Hudson's front she gazed,
faithfully, its reflection gave back all her loveliness:
a queen in floral flawlessness; a sight that left me
by the freshest Summer greens
green with envy....

EVEN CONSTANT

Constantly my lover, remember there's a lover
up above whose love like time is constant.

Take a chance at love, even as with
chances in the past, much hurt you've endured.

Love me as best as you can,
for this lovers love is aflame. Even constant.

nO dEATH dAY aS iNTENSE

No death day as intense, as that on
which a freeborn as I witnesses his
own death. Was it not I,
a willful soul who in death willfully engaged?

Did not I live rightfully/ steadfastly?
Treading the path of heavens one true
king: kneeling till my knees sored,
crying my eyes dry.

As today I die: die from all that since
birth was to me good.
Resigned. Ill fated: I stray into all
the world considers doom.

I am a land rusted with corruption:
what must happen… must happen.

wHO lOVES nOT tO dEATH

'Too few of us arent guilty of murder', lets
look to inward and inquire, how often it is
one that loves kills that which he loves.
Question: in lust isnt pain profound?

A young brides lingering nights subject a
loving man to torture.
The priests haunting revelations taunt/ haunt
the day dreams of the pious.

All too often young love dies before adulthood:
all that remains of it are recurring images of
lonesome nights. Mine was strangled with
lusts re-awakening.

A re-awakening that led to the realization,
'all too often, all that we love should be to death put'

oF cHRISTENDOM. oF lOVE. oF hOPE.

Over the last few days, I have had too much time to ponder on the dimensions of love and its many perplexities: the love that provokes a mother to abandon her family? The love that leads one to lose all that which he loves?

They say the love of God is the root of all knowledge. Is it possible to love God to the extent that you denounce the very children that out of your womb came?
I am filled with questions and in a short supply of answers. It’s true Jesus said we should leave our families and follow him, but to my interpretation, it doesn’t mean abandon or cast them out, it simply means God should be priority in your life; he should precede your family. Your love for him should come first.

I recently made a decision to become a Christian: to live, preach the gospel. I have made many decisions alike to this in the past, but now it’s different. I know it’s different because I no longer seek a religion, I seek a relationship. I no longer seek to see his face- though that’d be great, but I believe his truth whether I see him or not.

I haven’t magically gotten answers to all my questions/concerns as regards religion, but now, even in my confusion, I feel his peace. Even in my fear, his boldness comes upon me. In my times of need, I know he provides.

I choose to be guided aright. I’d check myself every once in a while with the slogan, ‘WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?’
For me, the love of Christ is a dark gift, one that triggers my passion for redemption. One that introduces me to the miracle that I am.